My Confession to the System

I’m completely ashamed of myself and I’ve decided to come clean,
‘Cause I’ve taken a vow of integrity and I’m clearing my name.
So here goes.


I’m an impostor; an actor of deceit…
I’ve been taking advantage of you,
Presenting myself under the guise of inadequacy,
Blatantly deceiving you; feigning poverty.
I know. It’s despicable.
I can’t believe I’ve stooped this low myself.
So I’ve decided to stop pretending.

See, I have a confession to make.
It is my duty to inform you that…
(I can do this…)
That—

I’m filthy rich!

I know, I know, it’s really bad but that’s not all:

Me and my posé have an inheritance of Prime Real Estate.
I mean this Land never looses value.
We’re set for eternity!


You gotta see the humor in this!
Not only have I secured immeasurable fortune,
But I have stashed tremendous potential for many, many years
And it has even generated interest!
The crazy thing is I didn’t even realize it!
I mean, I kind of had an inkling
But I kept it hidden, holding back in fear.
I swore myself to secrecy, choosing not to reveal.
But it’s been buried there all this while.
Amassing in power and size
And I kept and horded it for myself.

Granted this vow to secrecy has exposed me to undesirable circumstances
I’ve suffered a lot under this pretense
Feigning the appearance of mediocrity
But I’m tired of living like this
And I chose to break out and claim my true identity

So I’m sorry for deceiving you!
I’m sorry for taking your hand outs,
Your resources reserved for the poor…
For succumbing to the lies they told me to tell
The compromises that lead to almost hell
Tweaking my credentials just a little bit to gain your acceptance and approval
And for taking your pity,
Your sympathy,
Your shame;
Just to bear your name.

From now on I will walk in true integrity
Taking my place of dignity and distinction
And embracing destiny.
So long system!
I’m off to conquer my world.

-March 7, 2011 8:30-8:55am, 9:30-10:00am, 8:35-8:50pm

The Word Reveals

Have you ever been there? You knew Him once, you were so close, but somehow you got away? You know how to fake it now and get by, but deep down you know it isn't like before. You gave up to circumstances and thought if He cared, He would come after you. If you draw nigh to God, He will draw nigh to you. Will He always be this merciful? "The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases. His mercies never come to an end". Follow me.

The Word Reveals

I open my mouth and speak, professing Christianity.
“Well, praise the Lord!”
“Hallelujah!”
“God bless!”
A cliché for every statement you make
All the while defiled and tainted from within

Having a form of godliness but denying the power thereof
The righteous turn away from me
Deserted I feel…I wonder ‘Can they see through me?’
I lack power and I wonder why
Could it be the fact that I don't talk to Him, fellowship with Him day to day?
Could it be because I ignore His Word?

His Word.
I sit in the pew and glance at It laying there beside me.
It has been so long since I have read It’s contents
So long since I fed upon its goodness
I venture to study It.
I carefully crack It open, flipping through the pages

The Word, It amazes me, It dazes me
As a brilliant light through the darkest, It overtakes me
Blinded by It’s intensity I am better able to see
The Truth pierces through me like a two-edged sword
Dividing my soul from my spirit
Splitting the joints from the marrow of my limbs
Halted and deformed I am, my fault is visible

Alone, I look within and see a void
So wide and deep it can fit the vastness of the wind
So empty I am, I fall to my knees
I cry out to God with one desperate plea
"Fill me afresh. Make my heart receptive to You
Restore me Lord and teach me anew"

Instantly He heard me and engulfed me in His flame
And gave me what I asked in His powerful Name
He filled me afresh and gave me a song
And said in His presence is where I belong

Oh Lord, let your Word reveal in me
The fullness of Your glory and Father, change me.


August 14, 2006 and June 24, 2010

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References:

§ 2 Timothy 3:5
§ Isaiah 29:15
§ Hebrews 4:12
§ Hebrews 12:29