Single Hearted: My Desire-2003

My Desire was written during my senior year of college, 03-03-03 to be exact. Still very single yet having gone through heart break, I expressed my desire in words that seem pretty sappy in retrospect, but makes me appreciate what I can enjoy now in marriage. In essence, it is a call to let my kingdoms fall allowing God to have sovereignty in my heart, then and now.

My Desire

I want to be in my man’s arms

Sit comfortably against his chest

Have him whisper comforting words in my ear

Converse with him

On the struggles of life

Have him join me in supplication unto God

Through Jesus Christ

I want to smell a whiff of his cologne

And know that I am not alone

That someone is willing to hear me

Not judge or advise me

Just hold me

I’ll have to let him know

That I would willingly receive his love

If he would let me love him in return

I want to feel his touch

Oh and if that weren’t enough

To hear his concern and tease

And laugh or cry with easy

It’s okay- I can be myself all day

Shifts in moods we may endure

We’ll learn to love in spite of it, even more

Fall for me at first glimpse

Or not realize his feelings until

Until maybe I lure him with my charm

Or grip his heart with my song

Or would he see the Glory of his God in me?

Will he recognize the produce of the Spirit,

And be drawn by it?

Will he take note and keep it in his heart

Vowing his love for me will never part

Simply under the sanction of God

To begin something very special

If I would undue my tight grip about this

Capture once again the love for God that I so miss

And desire more than a tender kiss

From the one I would love

If I let go of this world’s good

And follow after God everyway that I could

Knowing full well that He will lead me on

To something superb

If I would let my kingdoms fall

Placing down the idols I’ve adored

Including this man of my dreams

It all turns out to be in vain,

If you know what I mean

Once I get what I think I want,

One day I’ll be bored

And realize that God alone,

Should have been my one and all.

I want the God of my salvation to meet me

And bear me in His embrace

To touch my mind and heart

And enlarge them,

Causing me to know

That the greatest love is in Him

And the finest of things belongs to me

If I would just fear Him

With my innermost being

All that’s within

And put away all forms of sin

Including idolatry and covetousness

Exchanging them for purity and righteousness

Only until then will I experience

The humanly love that God has in store

If I place it in His hands

And walk away

Desiring nothing more than to please Him

If I seek first the kingdom…

Which is the solution to all of this

What more does It say?

All things will be added unto me

I have to yield to Him everyday

And understand the significance of my reverence

To fully and willingly take hold, for this

Is what I want, what I need

What I desire

03-03-03